It TaKe a Long Journey!!

Total submerge into a long awaken night, the journey ahead is long and consuming. The journey which concern is damn far and unpredictable. But i Promise to myself i have to reach for it no matter wat cost. I might wait for a long night to become again but it worth it.

Complicated

The word 'complicated' is totally deep n unexplainable. I was wondering the true meaning of it!

As far I doubt n dislike it, it still persist on.

The longer of it, I felt like stuck into middle of blank sea with nothing to hang on.

But i told to myself i will continue to contribute as this feeling was my inspire and target in lives.

Persistence as might be, i will try lives my life to fullest and give as many i can. Thx!

Desire became Desperate

Feeling often overwhelming us in many ways. A simple desire of dream and future is sometimes not enough for us. When the situation become more critical and final, this feeling will expands till became a true companion of our lives. This desperate will continue to overwhelm us till the end.

I initially just got a simple glimpse of my desire and feeling. But when it reach the end, I think cannot let go of it any more. It have became my companion and life target, even it take long time and effort to achieve. The meaning of achieve it is too great even i willing to scarify a lot.

You NeedeD Me!! - song

This is also another my favorite song. This song is sing by BoyZone and it a replay song from Anne Murray. This is among the first English song that I start to like after influence from my sister. It quite claim and the passion of the meaning of the lyrics melt me. Ronan Keating was the main sing of BoyZone at that times.

I cried a tear
you wiped it dry
I was confused
you cleared my mind
I sold my soul
you bought it back for me
And held the up
and gave me dignity
Somehow you needed me
You gave me strength
to stand alone again
To face the world
out on my own again
You put me high
upon a pedestal
So high that I could almost see eternity
You needed me
you needed me
And I can't believe it's you
I can't believe it's true
I needed you
and you were there
And I'll never leave, why should I leave?
I'd be a fool
'cause I finally found someone who really cares
You held my hand
when it was cold
When I was lost
you took me home
You gave me hope
when I was at the end
And turned my lies
back into truth again
You even called me "friend"
You gave me strength
to stand alone again
To face the world
out on my own again
You put me high
upon a pedestal
So high that I could almost see eternity
You needed me
you needed me
You needed me
you needed me

AlonE!!

When totally in different places, it felt unhappy and depreciate when you are alone. As alone might be, sharing between person which care can be delighted.

It felt alone when travel outside for work. The feeling to get in touch for the person u care so much is intensify. Feeling of homesick with the person u precious is true.

Once A BluE MooN!!

This is a one of my favorite song in Japan drama series - With Love- Hasegawa Takashi. It describes the friendship and relationship of persons through internet in this drama and there struggle between it. Plus, the charming song, I attracted to this drama.

The song is quite passion with feeling and emotion. It deeply touch my heart. I burn me and let me to continue in my life. The blue moon mean that rare opportunity which occur once in our life times. We have to take precious of our lives and opportunity around us.

Realizing it once happen a glint of moment, we have grab it, precious it, protect it, with all we can. Even if we can't do so, please bare with it till the end, no matter what will come, never let ourself in regret!!!

Think ahead

In oversea, I felt the different culture and living lifestyle. This is totally different to my country. People here move in slower pace and more enjoyful live. I would to envy their living. Then a again, the culture that different us, let us in different place. We cannot compare between it caz we r different.

Even so, It a totally enlighten experience to travel oversea. I would see and feel the total different. It not a imaginary place but just right ahead us. I would appreciate this meaningful trip. I would not let me in narrow thinking. I myself will let me to think ahead in every mater.

Mature

Lives is full with up and down. In end of junction, there must be a choices. We must choose between it. This choices that create us now and in the future. We must bear with our choices.

This up and down mature us and nutrient us. Nether less, we must be mature and confront it. By saying that, we must be well prepare mentally and physically. Not to revise other, we must know our weakness and less before even mention we are ready to confront it. Self improvement before we are actually qualify to lives up to our up and down.

I personally think it a need to revise ourself qualification before we making decision. I will improve myself before i confront myself again.

Firm

My Stand will firm wat ever happen. If to ask why i insist, my answer would be i cannot lie to my heart. It would be stupid to stay firm but better sorry than regret. I cannot replace it with other else even i try to do that. But deep down inside I can't.

Tis lately, i was thinking a lot of thing and possibility. And i think i will accept it with all my feeling. I willing to take pain, difficulty, hardness, disability and poor, to be united together.

I think i am a stupid person with a impossible wishes. Then a again, lives is like that. U won't succeed, if u won't effort. Hope my effort will success!

TraveLing SoOn!!

Will be travel to out country soon! It a totally new environmental for me. As I never step foot in other country before. A new location and culture for me to explore and venture. It a new excitement or adventure for me and same as a sad pace for me for leaving my beloved place.

This experience will enlighten me and guide me through rest of my lives. I will be refresh my mind and a new start for me to begin with. After come back, I believe I will become more strength and brave to continue my path again. To achieve my wishes again.

Thanks you, my holiday.

Sunset

Sunrise and sunset is one of the beautiful scenery around. It only last for short duration of times. We have to appreciate it beauty and magnification stunning view during it if not we might be regret when realizing it loses through times.

I think our life is full with passion and excitement. We have to achieve it, lives it, enjoy it to fullest before it gone, especially love. Even sometimes life is dull , it won't last long and we have to appreciate it before it loses.

I myself will try to appreciate the beautiful scenery before it slip away from my slight. If not, i will regret in the rest of my lives. There won't be the same sunset.

Ran

I seem r running from the truth. Doing a lot of thing lately. I still kept it deeply inside and just to keep myself busy. Letting me not to think more about it! Escape from the frustrated mind and feeling. But deep inside, I still mind my feeling. I myself is getting to accept and tolerate with it. I wiling to sacrifice just to achieve it.

The astronaut represent my feeling ready to take off and land in a deserted place. I am willing to explore the other part of the universal and travel to the forsaken place. Hope the night still around then!

Emotional

Knowing it make it much more difficult. I accept all which within it. Even more tough and bad situation, i can manage and accept it. As times goes, i will still effort on it. Realizing the meaning of achieving it, i promise to myself to hold on and hope for the night to come.

LOng Wait NiGHt!!

Staring through sky with city light, night still a long road ahead to be taken before the daylight come. Did the beautiful sight of night will be the same as the day time when its forthcoming? The feeling of charming and warm dim light still felt inside my heart. I want to keep this feeling deep inside me and don't want to looses it. Even this may be looses, i think i will still long wait this night until it arrive again!!!!