Stranger Again

I don't want to end it like that. Acting stranger between us and pretend just cool and nothing. I don't know how we started and ended it, but I still like you. It was the same feeling to you even this long and with another person. I sure it was you but wat is your answers!!

We already went through a lot. Understanding, forgiveness, learning, classes and more. I step deep inside your world and aid along your side. I quickly follow and agree your doing. This all mean I care for you.

Even we are not complete and perfect. You don't feel the secure from me and I felt the avoidance and giving up. I admit those weakness I have. I will be as honest and mature with you. I start to think more wisely and do accordingly. Don't judge me on those feeling and bad perception. I might not a whole new man but I trust I can be the man you to relay on. I might not really clearly mention it to you. I kind of person keep it deep inside my heart. 

I won't forgive me self if I just be stranger. I will take care of you.

Feeling

No matter I induce into my feeling. I do feel the urge of Loving you. I can't say you my LAST. But I sure you are my special one. No matter what happen I will be beside you. I can't forgive my self if I can't simply protect the person I care. You getting better and I will be along side you.

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I don't know how I will be but the one thing sure I will strike on as I can.
There is a lot thing to do and I need to be better.
I promise I will grow.
Thanks for all the help................

Un-Dare Word

The un-dare word I would like to deliver. Even I cannot forseen my future and decision, just hope what we will better off.

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I will do wat i think best for u. No letting me down again. there is too much different in life. We cannot predict anything in future.

I am sure somehow u will realise how am i n ur attitute toward me will changes. Sometimes, i really angry with u caz u didnot think before action n promise, whether in work, decision even in relationship. I know i am not much better but take some times before decide.

I will continue do wat i suppose do. The only problem i will face in future is my second income job or freelancer skill. I need another skill set to earn more and survive in kl. I will try to explore it  slowly.

Pain

too much pain. i cannot forgive myself that how incompetent was i. it the same ground i stand till now. i already change for better now. i hope i will pass through it. Prem.

目标

这些情造就了我性格。我已变成更加坚强和成熟。我还在爱着她,但这些情已远离我,回头来看我已成为第三者。她的不理和逃避令我不知怎样来讨好和面对她。

无论怎样我自己不能回头,我还有很多事要完成与发觉。 我的情是真,但我
我已跨过去我的无奈。我觉得我会再慢慢的补助和支持她,可能是我还留情着。我会一半式的等待她和进步还在找寻其他对象。

心动

我可以再让一次你心动吗? 你是真的变了。不敢直接视我。你还变肥了。我还是一样的我,但瘦了。我可能会改但我的情不会变。我不会等待你的,我会参与更多活动。我会追求我以前的大学朋友,但我真的对她没感觉。

我会承诺我对你的照顾。没什么天长地久但我会一直承诺下去到我们各自有终生的伴。每次谈话,我都不能和你好好地说。你闭开话题,所以我才写出来。

我对你的心有爱,伤,恨,淡。一直以来,我照顾你只是为你健康回复。但你只否认我们的感情,然而我只是坚持下去和抵赖你的回复。我们真的没有一次的清清楚楚的谈话。是我的忽略造成的。我只是追求的是你的健康和工作的稳定,然后再更你一起公开和获得大家的认同。我应该不可以听你给你一个人独立但是陪伴你在你最烦的时候。这两年多年,我真的是复出很多和配合来追求你。上课程, 修行,了解和学习你的世界都是我对你的追求。

然而,对不起,我不能像个男人性格一样。我是那么依赖和婆妈的男人。我还不会或你沟通和交谈。我是那么需要很长时间来改。但,你需要的是一个可以依赖的男人来关心和照顾你。那也是我的目地,不止是为了你,其他也是。我已在慢慢的发觉自己的无奈,但这还不够和太迟了。对不起。

人人都范'贱',后来只是我的一相情愿,你的不理让我真的想是不是我爱错了你。是不是我是令人讨厌或没出息。我的付出和等待但还是无缘的我们。可能我错在不对的时候,处事和人缘。累都累了,伤都伤了,我已累了,不想太令我伤害了。我不能够做什么,我做错了。但是我不希望你的以后将会像我。

万事只要你好,我就满足了。我不会搞乱你的感情。节身自爱吧,知道自己的要求和将来吧,你的选择我支持。

你要健康状况还原,发展事业舞蹈和别忘修行。我会继续跟法和教导,但不会逼自己上课,要存钱来投资。这四月来,我都有大概有天天练呼吸和静坐。它让我有点点细心来反省我的行为和静下来。

plan

alot hv happen to me. accident, breakup, pain. till now i still hope for miracle. i wan gain responsibity so i will join more n practice more so it not a waste. i alrd done frequent now. i try different living n care more that i could. it a proof i done better on future time. i dun wan envy but effort back the lost feeling in coming year. i will asist along side quitely.

focus

i afraid i will stay on same ground n not grow. i wan to be more extra brillant n reponsive so i will be noticeable. sure join of alot activity will let me more sociable but still cannot overcome my weakness.

i angry also the effort i give, didnot attention back. the willingness of my sacrife caz alot deal of damage. i really loss track of my interest. nvm it for greater good.

there is long path lies in front me. i really need to forseen it. i try find replacement but end up in dead end. mayb i should focus other thing on.

Decision and Focus

My mind got a lot to shout out but I don't know how.
Today got cooking competition and our team second place.
Today go dental to remove wisdom teeth and hole cavity re pasting process.
I will join more member for gain responsibility and grow my personality.
 I will kind to every person but create my own awareness toward every thing.

不能改变别人就改变自己；不能改变环境就适应环境；不能改变事情就改变对事情的态度
I cannot be forcing now cause even it will gain nothing but mind bothering trouble.
I have change myself so I can be accept again back.
I also have to adapt myself in for greater good.
I cannot be alone doing nothing but fill my live with colour so more meaningful.
There is the fact that I cannot change but I have to accept it and be better.
I sure I will grow as I more brave to face it and slowly gain purpose in life.
Work, play, target, settle down, productive and sincerity toward person in my life.

From the beginning, I alrd decided choice it and I will effort it and I will care for it.
Not mean forever but all I can.
The path I wan is peaceful, simple, helpful, meaningful, understanding, medication,and success in life.
It simple not as norm busy and chasing fame in life.
It same as my future mate.
It seem like aimless live for me.
I will effort for it...

Lives

wat i need to do....
wat i need to achieve...
who should i refer to n express.....
i finding my belonging without interfer u.
nothing here but lonelyness.
i regret for not doing anything...
but i decided to live simple but meaningful life....
follow guru teaching n live life simple....
u let me see wat the posibility n i decide to live like ur world.
it not hard but different.

forget

i try forget by doing thing more n join more friend. but deep inside i alrd choose wat i like. i will wait till find my mate again.... L